|Tuesdays at Two Writing Teachers!|
I don't feel like writing. I'm tired and stressed, and because I forgot what day it was, I forgot to be thinking about writing all day. I forgot to roll writing ideas around in my head as I showered, walked down the hallways, and drove to and from school. I forgot to notice the wispy, glittering hints of writing ideas half-hidden all around me. I forgot to start giving myself pep talks, to remind myself why I write, to sweep out the dark corners of my brain and make room for writing.
So, at 7:30, when I begrudgingly pull my laptop out of my bag and settle onto the couch, committed to keeping my assigned appointment with myself, I am not in a writing mood. I am like a kid staring down a pile of homework.
Strong Jennifer and Frazzled Jennifer start to argue:
If I don't write tonight, I'll have to tell my students next week that I didn't even come close to my goal... again!
But I don't have anything to write about...
Yes, yes I do! Dumb excuse! I have a whole list of writing ideas in Evernote!(scrolling through list of ideas)
Nope. Not that one, too much work. Nope, not that one, not in the mood. Nope... Nope... Nope... None of these are any good.
Oh hush, yes they are! There are so many great ideas in there!
Well, all the good ones are too much work. Or they don't match my mood right now.
How about a slice about not wanting to write?
But I've done those before! Who wants to read another one of those?!
Let's put a new twist on it! I can think of a new twist! Besides, they're great for showing kids!
But I'm so sleeeepy! We just finished the first nine weeks! I could take a break this week...
No! No more breaks! It's only part of one evening! There are plenty of other breaks in the week, and if I start writing only when I feel like it, I won't do it nearly enough! I'm forever telling kids how sometimes we have to work even when we don't feel like it!
But, you know, that one extra stressy thing... IMPENDING DOOM! (gritted teeth and tightness in my neck, for extra drama)
Oh, come on, it's not even that bad. Just one dumb thing. It will almost certainly turn out better than I imagine. And not writing is not going to help. In fact, not writing will make me feel worse!
Yeah, ok, I know, totally right. But... sleepiness! Snuggly couch!
If I start right now, I'll have time to relax afterwards! And then I can really enjoy the relaxing, instead of feeling annoyed and guilty that I didn't write when I had the chance!
Oh fine. Here we go. I suppose we can do a new "I don't want to write" one...
See, that wasn't so bad, right? Actually pretty fun? And how about this proud, STRONG feeling?!
That's what I don't want to forget.
I think that you approached this topic in a fresh, engaging way!ReplyDelete
This just made me laugh out loud. Glad you wrote!ReplyDelete
Love it! I think I have that same fight with myself about many things. :)ReplyDelete
Yep. I've had over a month of these conversations too! Thanks for pointing me in your direction. Great slice and I'm happy we BOTH wrote today!ReplyDelete
Love that ending, and I am glad you wrote, despite that snoozy feeling and that "Snuggly couch!" You are a clever one to handle all the noise and not stop! (Be sure to show your students!)ReplyDelete
Great mentor text for your students! Love your inner battle conversation and font changes! As I write this comment, I cringe because I didn't get to writing a slice (picture me hanging my head in shame). You remind me of those powerful words, JUST DO IT!ReplyDelete
Love this argument back and forth between Strong Jennifer and Frazzled Jennifer. Sometimes it is hard, but writing through the hard brings the sweet sense of accomplishment.ReplyDelete