Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Pressure

Day 9 of 31 at TWT!
A small sigh sends tremors across her broad body, catching my attention as she flips her test booklet to the next page. Glancing up, I notice tears brimming at the edges of her eyes. "You ok?" I give her a small smile. She nods, trying to mask those shiny pools but not succeeding.

I decide to let her try to be tough for a few minutes, so I return to my stack of papers. But when I peek back up, her furious blinking and deep breaths are not doing anything to diminish the salty waves threatening to spill onto her face.

"Hey," I sneak gently over beside her seat. "Would you like to go walk around for a few minutes? A break always helps." 

Her shoulders relax as she nods gratefully. A small smile barely creeps onto her face. "Yeah. Thank you." 

She's been testing for hours, and she still has a long way to go, on this third of five grueling days. Less than two months ago, she arrived from Egypt with enough credits to enroll as a senior. Unfortunately, that means this is her first and only chance to pass all five sections of the Ohio Graduation Test in order to graduate with her class. Even though she's only had two months of American education and therefore hasn't even had the opportunity to learn some of the material she's being tested on. Even though she's still developing her academic language skills in English. (She's an advanced ELL, but still!)

Sure, she can retake the tests in the summer and even come back to take them next year, but she'd miss the cap and gown, Pomp & Circumstance, worrying about tripping onstage, and turning that tassel as one with hundreds of her peers. And she knows it. 

Those tears have tried to peek through every day this week, and I bet they will again the next two days. Mine certainly would. 

7 comments:

  1. Seriously. This angers me (although I would like to write a much stronger word). I am testing my native English speaking kids and its hard for some of them. I can't comprehend the idiocy that requires someone in the country for months to take a test and pass in order to graduate

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  2. These poor students! I want to send the ones who created this situation to go to the kids' countries and make them survive in the schools too. Grrrr!

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  3. Oh my heart goes out to this student. What a tough spot to be in.

    I'm sure she is so thankful to have you.

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  4. It's so wrong to have students take tests we know they aren't ready for with such high stakes. I have some ELL students too. They are only 11, but I anticipate their upcoming anxiety as we begin PARCC in April. Your observations and willingness to let her take a walk shows the compassion the tests so lack.

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  5. It's so wrong to have students take tests we know they aren't ready for with such high stakes. I have some ELL students too. They are only 11, but I anticipate their upcoming anxiety as we begin PARCC in April. Your observations and willingness to let her take a walk shows the compassion the tests so lack.

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  6. It's wonderful that you've noticed, and probably even predicted that this young woman is going to have such trouble, and that you did something to help. You are so kind, Jennifer, and that kindness helps the students work harder. So lovely to hear this story.

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  7. You have the heart of a special educator. It is very unfortunate that legislators do not hear the stories of every ELL student that they hold to the same standards of students who have grown up here. We need to do more lobbying for these students rights.

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